My friend Micah

"Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise.
Though I sit in darkness, the Lord will be my light.
Because I have sinned against him, I will bear the Lord's wrath,
until he pleads my case and establishes my right.
He will bring me out into the light; I will see his righteousness.
Then my enemy will see it and will be covered in shame,
she who said to me, "Where is the Lord your God?"
My eyes will see her downfall; even now she will be trampled underfoot like mire in the streets."


So these things usually tend to be somewhat instructive, or (hopefully) encouraging. This one gets a little personal, but I'm okay with that, because... well... it's my blog, and I can do what I want with it.

I've been on night shifts now for about 3 months - reeeeeally can't stand it. Of just about any frustrating circumstance or situation I've had in my life, this is quite possibly my least favorite. I live in such an extended state of exhaustion that I sometimes feel like I don't even know myself anymore. The rub of it is, this may be an act of God to help me understand some things better (whether or not it was his doing, the situation certainly arose out of my disobedience to his precepts). Or it may simply be the situation I find myself in.
Regardless, whether it was by his plan or simply my own stupidity, the way out doesn't lie in my own scheming and manipulations. I will put my trust in the Lord my God, because he carries titles (born from his actions) like Redeemer, Savior, Shelter, Provider, Protector, Advocate, Warrior, Healer. And he is infinitely more capable of seeing after both my needs and desires than I am.